Entry for 28 January 2007 - The office crush?!?!?!

I'm the first to admit that yep i have an office crush... He's sweet, funny and some what sexy in his own little way. I can remember when i first got my crush on him, it was on the friday of the first week that i started at my job. We were all standing / sitting in the office common room / kitchen. I was having a beer and just chatting to him. I hadnt noticed him before this time as he worked down the other end of the office and was out and about and not really in the office much that week. But yep as soon as i got chatting to him i realized that in some ways i'm still like a teenage girl... I still get a crush.

So now as time has gone on, he has a girlfriend, i've had a boyfriend the whole time. My crush hasn't really settled at all. I still get some what butterflies when i see him. I enjoy talking to him when i'm at work. But our relationship (if you can call it that) that we've built up over the last 12 months isn't really a love relationship as such... its more of a great friendship. If someone is pissing me off at work, or if i think that the whole world is crushing in on my shoulders, he's the first person that i'll email or go talk to. One because he'll always talk back to me... But second of all because he does the same with me.

So fellow viewer / readers (even though there aren't all that many of you) i'm going to ask you all a question... Do you think its normal to have an office crush? I don't find it to be all that harmful to be honest. I've never crossed the line, and either has he. But i wonder sometimes (in an "i'm not up myself kinda way") does he have a crush on me also... It could be possible. Now people don't get me wrong at all... I actually have more male friends than female friends... its something that has happened to me since childhood. I've never really had that many close females in my life. I find them more difficult to connect with, and i also hate the bitchiness and everything that goes on behind one another backs.

Personally my verdict at the end of the day is that i think its healthy to have an office crush. No one has to know. People some times suspect things but through it out the window because i have a lover or boyfriend of 18 months now... He has a girlfriend of how ever long himself. Grate mates or crush either way you look at it... I think its nice!