The Lie

How would you react to your boyfriend telling you a lie???? Through the week my boyfriend said that he was going the footy with the boys from work - last night I was told that he's actually only going with the new girl in the office and her friends.

So why lie about it? I wouldn't stop him - I think its a nice thing that he's being nice to a new person within his company. I don't have a problem with him being friends with anyone. I do have a problem with him telling me a lie because he thinks I'm going to stop him from doing what he wants.

Funny thing is that I wouldn't have a problem with it at all - but I do now because it feels like he's keeping something from me. Maybe I am over reacting - but I said he could go - and I told him to have a great time. I just hate the fact that he feels like he needs to lie to me. I thought I was a great girlfriend that just wouldn't be worried about that.

Anyway I hope he has fun and they all have a great time - I'm here in the comfort of my warm home watching the game - not the same but oh well really.

While I may sound pretty ok about the whole thing I'm actually a little worried - I love him and I hope he's not cheating on me. I guess time will only tell. I'm not going to let it get me down - as hurtful as the thought is.

Another big week in the city

Another celebratory week in the city - for the second time this month I've received a pay rise... Woohoo - the hard work that I'm putting in is paying off. And it makes me feel fantastic. Not only the money but I'm getting a great deal of job satisfaction - its a nice challenge.

A difficult situation that I feel that I've been put up for is the fact that Friday had an announcement that the witch thats only just joined the company (and I call her that becasue she can act like it at times - but also looks like one) - is talking over the administrative manager. She's not completely my manager - but I do have to take not of what she has to say to me at times. This part of my life I will keep you posted about because I'm sure that its going to be interesting.

The weekend consisted of me being lazy and not doing a great deal - I miss my weekend. I hate monday's - and I usually hate work on a monday. It takes until wednesday for me to get into the swing of things with work.

At the moment works is just really busy with work - but I at the moment the little side stories of people are on a low. I don't have enough time to really pay attention to these things. I'm not saying that its a bad thing or anything like that. People's personalities will come out and irritate me more... Stay tuned!

J

Devil Woman

Maybe devil woman is an over exaggeration type of thing - but I'm not kidding my work place is over the top! I have a girl at work that I'm now going to call Devil Woman when I refer to her... She and I have worked together for over 12 months now - during this time we have become close and became great friends.

I've known that this person is a moody person but its been taken to a new extream when I don't feel like I can confront her at work. She is so moody and very very horrible and rude to people. Its so annoying.

I know myself that I can get in bad moods - I don't deny that what so ever. But I will not call myself a moody person. She is a moody person and its difficult to be around.

Now I'm on the mind set that because I'm busy I'm not going to worry about it - its sad really when work gets in between friendships and things like that... I hate the fact that I can't see that our friendship will be the same again - I can't say never - but I know that I'll be a little more reserved around her now. I don't think that anyone should have to deal with this type of thing - and I believe that I shouldn't either.

Darker side of the city Part 1

This city is hard to grab hold of - this is Sydney for the people that don't recognise it. And just like most cities it comes with some warnings. Coming from the country I found it really difficult to begin with - and the really sad thing now is that the things that I found really difficult don't bother me any more and I hardly ever think of those things.

Homelessness has never stared me right in the face like it does in this city. When I first moved here it used to break my heart, I used to give money when I could. I used to look the homeless in the eye and smile - because I felt like I could hold my head up high because I hadn't done anything wrong and I'm a good person.

But along the way I don't really look at these people that I might pass about 5 times a week... I very rarely look them in the eye any more and I hardly ever give a begger off the street any money. I still don't think of myself as a bad person. But I guess i don't leave my house every day now and think that I can change the world.

I don't know if its a disappointing feeling or a feeling that is good that I can deal with life. Half the time I can hardly look after myself; but with saying that I do have a roof over my head and if i don't have any money - it will only be a couple of days or even a day until my money does come into my account.

4 years ago when i chose to move to Sydney I don't think i really thought about how it would effect me. For sure I've grown up and I'm a more independent and strong headed woman than i ever thought - but on the other hand I do think what if i stayed living in my home town and I lived at home with my parents or had a place of my own where the rent is cheaper and I could actually think of doing a little more with my life. I would love to travel over seas and have a huge adventure. The down side of living in an expensive city is the fact that i don't feel like i'll be able to afford to do this any time soon.

Its a sad realization for a Monday evening - but one that I do often think about...

Where is my future heading????? Anyone like to help me on this one????

Ok well time for bed - good night bloggers.

J xoxoxox

Big Brother 07

Does anyone out there like Big Brother 07? I love the show - currently I have it on my computer so I can read the house updates... Which I do while I'm also at work... And then on in the background I have it on the TV.
Every year it comes on I get so excited. I'm not too sure why... I would never consider entering the house because I would hate to have myself on TV. But I love to watch other people. I love to see what bored people are like. And to get to know people like they are your friends.

My tip on one of the top 3 is going to be Travis. He's the good all round aussie bloke that I would just love to hug and just get to know. He's my tip for the top 3 anyway.

James Morrison at the Enmore Theatre

I went to see this lad play last friday night at the Enmore Theatre and I do have to say that it was a massive shock to say that I thought he was fantastic.
And I have to say that from a females point of view he is dam sexy - that voice of his just captures you and you can't look away.
If anyone gets a chance to check this guy out - especially females you would be happily surprised. His CD really doesn't do him the justice that is deserved like when you see him live.
So people go out there and book a ticket if you can see him - its a fantastic show where he plays for a good hour or longer.

J

Missy Higgins at the Enmore Theatre

A couple of Friday nights I went to see Missy Higgins for the first time at the Enmore Theatre in Sydney. And I have to say that it was a fantastic show... She has an amazing voice and I'm really kicking myself that I haven't had a chance to see her before now.

I'm a huge supporter of Aussie music - I have a brother that loves his music and is just fantastic on the base. I hope that he makes it with his dreams just like she has.

I've never travelled overseas so I can't compare different gigs - but the ones that I go see from Australia and internationally really make you open your eyes and think how wonderful our life is really... And how a beautiful voice is really touching that you just want to listen to it again and again.

5 Stars for Missy Higgins - I would go see her again any time. Next time I hope its on a Saturday afternoon while I'm at the Hunter Valley or something very sensual like that - I can enjoy my wine and cheese with my partner. I think that would be my most ideal day.

J

My weekly rant about nothing!

You know when you just want to call in sick from work for one day and just spend it either having coffee with a friend - or doing your washing - or catch up on some homework that you just never seem to get around doing... Well thats what I've been looking at doing for the last 2 weeks but due to being hectic at work I just don't seem to work up the courage to do it as I've got such a hectic work schedule at the moment.
I know it seems pretty odd; I'm telling myself to just take a sick day and deal with the consequences later - but the guilt would settle in and I just don't work up the courage to actually do it.. Instead I do end up turning up to work about an hour and a half late which people get even more pissed off at me about. But as I keep telling myself in my head better late then never - and in my case - showing up at all.

Other than my work being so very hectic... I'm not sleeping because I'm so busy and because it worries me. I love my sleep so it's making me even more grumpy. I just can't help it - it seems that I'm heading around in a terrible circle and just don't know how to stop.

I have a girl at work that is planning her trip overseas at the moment; and I seem to be wishing it was me. I would love to just pack everything up here in Sydney and just work and travel overseas. I would love it if my boyfriend could come with me... But this little dream of mine just doesn't seem to be coming true or happening at all.
My partner as I've probably mentioned once or twice does live at home with his parents - he does have a gambling problem and as a result of this has a rather large debt that he is paying off. So I just can't see him heading off with me long term. I don't try to ever think of things in a long term type of way - but it seems to be happening more and more - and I'm just not too sure if its ever going to happen for my partner and me.

Anyway thats my rant... Hope you enjoy.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

J