You know when you just want to call in sick from work for one day and just spend it either having coffee with a friend - or doing your washing - or catch up on some homework that you just never seem to get around doing... Well thats what I've been looking at doing for the last 2 weeks but due to being hectic at work I just don't seem to work up the courage to do it as I've got such a hectic work schedule at the moment.
I know it seems pretty odd; I'm telling myself to just take a sick day and deal with the consequences later - but the guilt would settle in and I just don't work up the courage to actually do it.. Instead I do end up turning up to work about an hour and a half late which people get even more pissed off at me about. But as I keep telling myself in my head better late then never - and in my case - showing up at all.
Other than my work being so very hectic... I'm not sleeping because I'm so busy and because it worries me. I love my sleep so it's making me even more grumpy. I just can't help it - it seems that I'm heading around in a terrible circle and just don't know how to stop.
I have a girl at work that is planning her trip overseas at the moment; and I seem to be wishing it was me. I would love to just pack everything up here in Sydney and just work and travel overseas. I would love it if my boyfriend could come with me... But this little dream of mine just doesn't seem to be coming true or happening at all.
My partner as I've probably mentioned once or twice does live at home with his parents - he does have a gambling problem and as a result of this has a rather large debt that he is paying off. So I just can't see him heading off with me long term. I don't try to ever think of things in a long term type of way - but it seems to be happening more and more - and I'm just not too sure if its ever going to happen for my partner and me.
Anyway thats my rant... Hope you enjoy.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
J
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